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Neither happy nor sad

I have just written a random post on the blog and yet here I am typing another post. Let's get started.


I feel I am getting old as time passes by although I am 24 years 6 months old. I do have reasons why I am saying what I am saying.
  • I am taking homeopathic medication since more than 6 months for the dandruff.
  • I am loosing say vigor or passion towards achieving new heights in life.
  • I am lazy to wake up early and feeling every other day as just one more day of life.
May be I lost the energy because of monotonic days of life but this is how I feel today.

Despite saying monotonic life, I must say nothing is same when I compare it with last 3 years. I feel changes in my life have reached their saturation point and I have reached new heights to adjust myself to situations.

I am worried about the new boxes that I have to discover in future and want the life to stay stand stilll but as we know it, "Life doesn't stop for any one". There are so many things running in my mind and I must say, I am not at all happy with the way things are going. By "things" I am referring to the changes in life, in the form of friends leaving and my own thoughts on expectations to achieve new heights in life. I do understand that certain things are not in my hands and certain other things are my high expectations. May be, I am never a satisfied person because of my nature as said by my mom and Uma, I do not know. I have everything except a soul mate with who I can forget about the world and Money to show the world that I am rich.

I am increasingly believing that Life is not about money but about peaceful mind and healthy relations with family. These thoughts of thinking life in general and trying to be mature may be another reason why I feel I am old. Anyways, No one can do nothing about one dimensional forward movement of time than accepting it as the way it hits you.

Now time is 09:59 PM and yet I am in office writing this blog post because I have nothing waiting back at home or no other thing is interesting for me to spend time on it. Whatever may be the case, I am not so happy. May be I need a break from work life and travel to clear my thoughts in general.

I am signing off for the day, I should pack my bag and leave for the day.



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