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Real you , Judge yourself

Hello Again , I've been thinking from quite a while to update this blog but yes i am negligent. Okay Here I go.

Hmmm , I thought to use this blog to pen my life as it is moving on but fortunately or unfortunately my mind is so unstable that it keeps on thinking and my thoughts are endless. Let me start with what had happened in past few days and what are going to happen in next few days. As of now each and every aspect of my life are properly planned and well executed right from my education to start my career as a software engineer. But what had happened in past few months are not under my control , I happened to work as shadow resource for more than 5 months and been sent to other project where we would deal with companies and its subsidiaries than of my core SAP and there are good times and as career is progressing I happened to be a billable resource right from today April 2nd in a SAP project for a client which distributes automotive parts. As of now I have no chance and no way to prove myself as good technical person , Now I got a chance and it happens to be the only chance if i don't prove myself . I want to personify myself as a good hard working , technically strong and well characterized person. All I have to do is just focus.  There are many persons whom i should take as inspiration but the fact one should realize is that every single thing that happens in your life is under your control and you have to realize yourself and show the energy and passion deep inside you to let people recognize you. recognition is not of big importance but there will be satisfaction and happiness when you are recognized and that keeps you motivated for the next work that you have to perform . Every single company uses this trick Rewards and Recognition to keep their employees motivated and get work done through them. If you are intelligent , there are dozens of intelligent people around you who are better than you. But ultimately your personality play's the role.
I happened to be not of that great character these days and i can sense that and I know any human when recognizes his faults he can over come the defects if he has will to over come it .
Shout Loud !!!!!! , With all your energy and say I can do it and see the change you wish to .

Hmm enough of rubbish , So , I got a chance to prove myself and should use this and as ugadi just passes by I am expecting to be a very great new year ahead waiting for me. I went to my home this ugadi and really i liked being with family. Now as time passes by I understood one thing ,  None of the one's who entered my life left me. B.tech and hostel life are two things that never happen for me again in my entire life. I must thank one and every one of them for making my life so beautiful. Now I realized the exact meaning of silence between two friends , Its not that you talk and your friend understand . It means that you can completely understand your friend though he is silent. Just think yourself and judge yourself about the friends that you have who can understand even your silence.


I don't know what i am writing but these are some instinctive thoughts that runs in my brain and the point is that i don't resist to pen down whatever or whichever thoughts that come into my mind. The plan for next few days is nothing , I wanted to keep myself open for learning and working hard in the project not for getting good feedback but to improvise myself and the other thing that i should work on is my thought process , I don't know why but i can sense there is really something thing that always bothering me and which always or at least i can say puts me in a position where one can say it is the wrong way to think or talk. The solution for this problem is nothing , Just keep your mind blank and this is not working for me yet but i'm trying.


To wind up shortly , I happened to be along with many people and had real good time since past few days but there is really serious things that are worrying me about losing friends. People are important than your rules or expectations.

Key for next few months of my journey is expect nothing and be more concentrated .

Thanks for reading post patiently.

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