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Some thing in life never change , February 2nd , 2012

This is pavan , penning down days as usual .
There are many things that can never change , one of the big thing that never change is you yourself . I never change , it is the perception that changes . Whenever you are on the same page everything seems to be fine but when you are out of sync then the true problem begins and once it happens it can never be back to normal .
Things have been changing very quick for me since past few weeks , good that it is happening and I am more than happy to accept the changes. Though it's happening for good you should know whether to accept the change or reject it but never try to deal even after the changes after people being changed. Thats good for your mind to relax. If you don't like people just hate them , behaving good to them doesn't give you happiness coz you know that they are causing you the pain. oofff , what am i talking I keep on typing whenever i think too much about something but you know what , People are just so sensitive of being what they are , unless you give all you have and expect nothing from them works for you and if you are expecting something back , it will hurt you for sure. Never be tilted to anyone , anytime who are not part of your family.They may change your opinions on them may change and loosing them is the sweet pain that you could probably have and as life is short there will be definitely such pain in your life.

If i come back to regular routine life ,
Life has changed a lot and it means a lot for me these days , expecting to do something at every moment but being myself is the biggest limitation any one could have . I am a lazy person, I am such an idiot who just don't want to put efforts and I don't know the value that time have . I know which are right and which are wrong but doing things that are right needs lot of dedication and hard work . Being myself and expecting something that of dreams will not make anything happen . I know how i will be , I know how i should be , I know more than what life mean to be but i'm still myself lazy who cares nothing and values nothing. This is how i am , I want to change , I want to work hard , I want but damn I can't do anything .

Expecting for a day to come true where people value for being myself and join me for whatever i do and I should mean more than themselves to me , this might be the feeling every one would have and expect a person in their life . I used to be a person who cares nothing about the people who doesn't care me but i don't know why I want people to be in my life. It might be because they were once in my life in the past.
I just want to erase everything , i just want to care nothing . I will be stronger in future for sure . Don't , Don't Don't care , be yourself , like whatever you do ,  don't even bother what people say then you will be on the track.

I just shared the feeling of hatred , that's not how i have been but still things change , people change , life will change but somethings never change , its being yourself.

Thanks and Regards,
Pavan.

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