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25th January , 2012

Every thing is about , How you feel or How you take it into your consideration , The changes I've made myself is effecting in positive manner and negative manner but its still a tough job on my part to hold on to my choices that i have made and Now I see wrong in entire world . Ooof , where there is success there are great sacrifices and sufferings behind that success. I hope every thing will add to the positive outcome. I am just able to regain
entire consciousness about the time i have lost in past few months . Just Expecting to utilize the remaining time I have. There are wide areas I should cover but time is very little and Today I should leave to my village , should have to attend one of my cousin's marriage. But I've really been losing in thoughts . I should try learning of how to make myself feel happy but now a days I have great agony about losing being myself . I should just relax for 4 more days with no thoughts and come back again to work.
Present daily schedule is , Morning waking at around 9 getting ready by 10 and going to office by 11 and having break fast and attending XI (PI) training till 1 and going for lunch and getting back to project work and doing the work till I wish to and I have handful of work to do also in the project. Coming back again to home and spending my time infront of computer for hours and sleeping whenever I wish to sleep , generally between 1 to 4. day starts back again .
This should be expected for change from February 4th , Planned things should go accordingly . Tough Times Ahead , Expecting to take any challenge whatever that comes in my way.

Past 5 days efforts didn't reach my expectations and utilized 10 to 20 % of available time. Still need 10 more days to get  on track , while it should kept in mind that it might be last 30 days of myself be in shadow role and might get into project then it is known that project work and tensions may pile up. Every way is showing a blank path for me don't know how people find time when they are working as software engineers and now i got the reason why people cannot learn while they are doing job :P.

Anyways that are the few things I wanted to copy and remember , Let me see when i can update the next log as I am going to home :) will not be back for next 4 or 5 days.

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